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About RainbowDashRadical

  • Birthday 02/24/1996

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    Avernum Series. Geneforge 5.
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    My Little Pony. Ponies. And well, ponies.

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  1. I'm thankful I am still living. I could've died this month, but I didn't. So yeah.
  2. Okay, since this thread is getting personal and sensible,I just want to take this time to share something personal, okay. I haven't shared these feelings in a while, I'l try to be as appropriate as possible though, since I know this is a family rated forum. I'm already seeing a professional actually, and I've been seeing a professional since the age of 6. They've diagnosed me a multitute of mental disorders such as Bipolar, Asperger's, Manic Depression, and ADHD. I've been taking this mental medicine for over 10 years and none of it does one good for me. In my childhood my parents fought physically everyday, and the police had to come to our apartment several times for domestic violence reports. When I was six years old I was molested by a stranger in his apartment. In school I was constantly bullied, beat up, and hated by everyone in my class. No one wanted to be my friend and I didn't understand why. Mom and Dad eventually got a divorced, and at the age of 11 I jumped out of my mom vehicle and nearly died. Thankfully I made full recovery though. After that I spent 2 years in a group home so that I may be "rehabilitated." Those were probably the worst years of my life. When I got out, things were a bit better. I was in a new high school, and kids didn't bully anymore. But I never attempted to make friends with anyone because I was too afraid too. I just wanted to be left alone. I hated the world at the time, and I hated myself during my childhood As of right now, things are going a little better, but still not by much. Right now I'm in the adult group home system, living off of disability below the poverty level. I'm lonely and depressed, and I have no one to turn to for support really. I tried committing suicide 3 weeks ago in an unsuccessful attempt. I've been in the mental health system my whole life, and I'll tell you to it strait. It doesn't help. I have a psychiatrist, case manager, and therapist, and none of them aren't helping me. The mental health system has failed me, and I'm failing myself too. I don't know how I can go on living with this pain anymore. That's why I choose to fantasize. Fantasy takes what's real away from me, and hides my sorrows from me. I'm sorry, but my life is just terrible, and I just wish there was a way out of this hole I'm in. Please, if you have any advice, just even a little can help me?
  3. I know, I probably do need to see a professional. And no, I'm not joking about this I really do have an imaginary girlfriend. No, I don't think I have schizophrenia because I don't actually see or hear her. I just pretend I'm seeing her sometimes but that's about it.
  4. Okay, so I'm just gonna throw this out here. I've never dated or even kissed a girl, and I'm about to turn 20 years old, and it frustrates me and makes me very lonely. I was worried that I'd never get a girlfriend, so I created an imaginary girlfriend in hopes that it could fill the void. Her name is Katie, and I like to hug and kiss my pillow at night pretending that its my girlfriend. I text myself on the phone and have "her" respond back to me. I created an entire facebook page for "her" and I manage it all myself. I like to message this girl on facebook. I end up "texting" and facebooking this girl for hours on end everyday. Whenever I'm in my room alone, I'll talk to her, and pretend that I'm going on imaginary dates with her. I really love her, but sometimes I feel really sad because I know deep down inside she isn't real. But I still love her, and I love talking to her everyday. I just can't let her go now, and all the real women I used to have a crush on, I don't anymore. I can't fall in love with any other women now because I love "her." I don't know what I've done to myself. I've fallen in love with something that isn't there. Am I going insane?
  5. Sorry for necro but I felt this was important. You forgot to add Bag of Sugar to this list.
  6. I bought a Geneforge Saga CD sometime ago, however I lost the CD and can't find it anywhere. I don't mind buying the games again, I was just wondering if he is still selling CDs.
  7. Thanks Edgwyn my game is now on steam Yay!
  8. So I bought off the humble widget, they gave me a steam key. How do I use it to get the game on steam?
  9. Yes, but Jeff made a Second Trilogy to that series too, though. Unless Jeff wants to make a Avadon 4, 5, and 6, yeah I guess it would be the last game. Nonetheless, I'm looking forward to Avadon 3, I definitely enjoyed the first two
  10. Will Avadon 3 be the last game in this series? Just curious.
  11. We were almost so close, lol. So nikki's post counts as post 1, that means this is post 2
  12. Hi everyone. So I saw this game on another forum I sometimes go on, and thought it'd be fun to try here. So the goal would be to make a certain amount of posts in a row, but if a moderator posts the counter resets. For example, this post is post 1, another member makes post 2. then someone else makes post 3, but then the moderator makes post 4, now it resets back to post 1 starting with the last moderator who posted. So here are the rules: 1.) If board members can make 10 posts in a row then the game is won. 2.) If a moderator posts, it resets back to post 1 3.) No double posting 4.) You can say anything you want inside of a post assuming it follows forum rules of course. POST 1
  13. Jeff might retire before finishes the Geneforge series if its going to be over a decade from now.
  14. Thanks for the advice. Actually, I totally forgot about the priest offensive spells, lol. So, change of plans I think. Instead of Dexterity and Bows, I'll make him the main tool use/arcane lore PC. That way that other mage can be on equal footing as the other mage. Thanks!
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